a rave beyond hackney downs. november. treasured acquaintance of sanjay? zane and cheer and pip. yet manic pixie dream girl to none. i named her jodorowsky. nonplussed at the time.
appearances threaded weeks in and out. missed connections in holborn, improbable samosas hoxton afterhours. filthy and coquetted. concealed delirious yearnings.
whitechapel hospital. friday nineteenth doctor vadher attending. sutures and trackmarks. some spitalfields scumdive. the word from her stepbrother. matter of factly. we had never got on.
I was one of the last to call.
I long for
interactions outside exploitation
shared experiences beyond consumption
how it felt there beyond your defences.
before our superegos reasserted the conventions
realigned our intentional conduct
to a stiff-backed orthodoxy of self-conscious